Hey, i think i'm in love with my second cousin..?need an advice?

Circe. Emotions are not easy things but you went too far already. Those of us who are bit older know that you will meet different people along the way that you will have emotions for. Some not so deep but some deeper ones. Obviously this man is older and is more experienced than you. I have heard this story of 'they' are about to divorce one too many times. I would say just forget about him for now. Concentrate on your career. With time you will realize it was just a 'thing' that happened. Hopefully, you will meet someone who will love you completely. As it is this man has issues in his life. Adding you to it will just complicate his and your life. It was just a holiday thing. Move on. Read some books to get your mind off him. Remember, you are in charge of your emotions and what you think about.